Why I slowed my roll

 Had a conversation with God where He pointed out that I shouldn't try to do too much at once or I would get burnt out. So, I asked if He wanted me to start a new church or salvage what was burning down. And He did what He usually does, and presented me with options with different outcomes. Long story short, I slowed down. I think he does this knowing how I am and would react if He just bluntly told me yea or nay. So he shows me the outcomes of different choices. It's more effective when you want an autistic guy to do a specific thing to use multiple choice. 

There was a lot more to this conversation, but I learned that the old human understanding didn't survive into the modern day, and that the particular traditions done out of habit are basically meaningless, that the intention is the most important. And that any tradition done with correct intentions and attention to what God wants from us, is technically the best we can do given human limitations. And that the actions associated with our belief show the contents of our hearts, and that effort and intention are more important than the nitty gritty specifics. 

So, I changed my approach. Rather than being very organized and legalistic and trying to think of all the threats to mitigate, and having all these conversations, I'm just gonna be patient and let it unfold naturally. Ultimately, He didn't tell me not to do it. And He didn't tell me to do it any certain way, just pointed out I was gonna wear myself out if I kept grinding like that. If only you guys could see how kind God is. (I recall, Moses had this problem too, where he tried to solve everything at once, got overwhelmed, and Jethro had to tell him to "go touch grass" so to speak.)